So here is the backstory, I am a 22 (soon to be 23) year old, independant, aspiring medical professional who still lives at home.

I am at such a crossroads right now, if you know me- i’m indescive, but not in a negative way. There’s usually too much i want out of life that I can’t just choose one option. Which is why I am 22 and just now looking into going back to college. well, no looking into, I AM going back to college. You see I took a break for a couple years, started working up into different clerical positions and with different companies until I finally decided “Hey I want to work for a hospital system” so i worked my butt off and got into the hospital system and now trying to figure out the rest. It’s almost like “I got to the point i wanted, now what?”

My mother is going in for open heart surgery tommorow actually, and my grandparents have been so kind as to move in and help with everything. I’ve been teetering on the edge for the past 1 and half about seriously moving out. I met this woman who read me like a book “You want the finality of independance, but you don’t want to leave your family and you don’t want to pay all that money.” It’s the truth- i’m never home (i work two jobs) and i have an amazing set of friends whom i’ve known my whole life. So pretty much my life is consumed with being everything to everyone (my family, friends and working) but not to myself sometimes.

To top it all off, i’m trying to find another position to work at that will alllow me to make more money so i don’t have to work two jobs but still be able to afford the extra bills and school come January. Who knew life is so difficult? I feel like i need to have an order or process here, i.e get the position first, then buy for the apt, then apt hunt, then move in, then apply for school… but there are days when i feel i need my own space or i just need to jump right into school.

I never knew making life changing decisions were so difficult.

Any suggestions?

)Angella